Joanne died six years go on July 30th and I didn't want this date to go by without a comment or update but I'm having trouble finding the right words and ideas to say in this post. Six years is a long time but I'm still missing her a lot and think of her every day. I still wear my wedding ring and think of myself as connected to her even though not "married". I thought I would take the ring off this year but didn't so I guess I'm not ready for that.
All the same, I'm moving on and have a different life now. I bought the house in New Mexico and I'm in the process of moving and look forward to the change. I made a lot of friends in the last few years and I'm leaving them behind but they will still be friends....just not local...so I have people to visit from time to time. My "old" friends will always be friends...almost family.
I had plans to be a "pioneer" and strike out in a new -- undeveloped -- area but in the end I bought a nice house in a nice area and I think Joanne would have been happy there....a lot more than the pioneer life. Much of what I have to move to the new house is furniture and house stuff that we had together so she will be there in a sense after I'm settled in.
So this is what's going on now as I look back over the last six years. It has been a struggle at times and it may still be so, but I'm feeling good about the changes that are in store.
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